Friday, March 11, 2011

here to say i am exhausted
one of my most exhausting periods

sometimes pple say its great to have someone there to listen and be there
you set high expectations and sometimes the things u wanna hear or the encouragement
you need just aint there
maybe the person is tired too and needs a break too
but cant just seem to say its dissapointing
its so hard and tough to smile and be fine
when you just cant
how?
stop trying maybe and pray hard
so hard but have faith


hey blog! hehe!
so long since i came here!
life has been hectic and stressful anddd whatnots hehe!
but still great in a way? haha!
i like jieyu's studio nvr knew there could be life in that forest seh!
i always pass by there to town and always thought it was like for trekking?
haha! hope there will be another chance to go there haha!
have been spending mon-wed nights w mum only! for this week!
the men in our hse are busy hehe! bro staying at aunt's hse and my dad got night meetings!
doing housework w mum is accomplishing! fast get it done!
then bnj icecream! yummm! its like i get to eat more without the men ard!
happy me! hehe!
and today i went out without my ezlink card again!!!
sooo always fogetful siannn!
im craving for koi ehh!! maybe grab it at bugis later?
haha and im not going to sch todayyy!! haha finally! i feel so crampped gg to sch quite often!
okeys i think enough of ranting hehe! bye for now!


sometimes i just feel lost
i rather be busy then not haha
but when im busy i feel lazy
then when im not busy, i still slack
ok i dont know if this all makes sense
the bottom line is omgggg im freaked out w myself

immm 20!!!! and i feel like ive not acheived much haha
but yup seriously and that feeling sucks
sooo i should kill those lazy buggers in my life
and start feeling hardworking like sec sch
study my books away!
but this time i want to make use of my life!
see what i wanna do in life pursue it
and dont regret!

some fishmongers might not have a choose of job!
but some fishmonger do! cause they just love their job!
we all have chooses and we when we regret
we cry and blame but we can reverse it
by making the right choice
bethleen needs to make the right choices.................


hiiiiii! hehe i came to blog haha!
leaving the house at 11 so yeah still got some time to kill!
life has actually been fine and great too!

have been sleeping w my mum for a week!
cause dad is sick and mum wont be able to sleep well!
a bug bed man but i still prefer mine got my own cozy space for me to fumble ard
i brought hamyy and my bolster over!
and mum has been talking to hamy everyday!
once she said: hamy's fav brkfast is chocolate milk so he can get his dark choco skin
hahahah!! i laughed hard! and it was in e morning like 8am or so!
might move back to my bed soon! haha
i diy-ed some more notebooks! inspired by envelopes haha! seeing quite alot of them!
and home i keeps dropping st's postage sticker by v!
yeah somehow i feel full-filled this week!
things have been settled and im actually happier now!
we all have to go out to find it and grab!
cause ultimately only u urself can make urself happy!
er dont know if that makes sense but yeah!!
lets all be happy! life is too short to be so sad!
will blog soon abt the other random eventsss!


hey jumping-jets hehe im saying hi to my blog
anywayzzz i think im closing it down or maybe just leave it like that
yeah i doubt i will blog again ohwell haha!
i dk what to blog anymore cause my thoughts
has been crazyy! crazy i feel im gg crazy heehe!
but im fine in another way i guess!
my fyp is one sad case i feel lost at times ohwelllllz
bye jumpingjets u've been great haha! my poly memories!
xoxo for now


i realised my table is overly cluttered although its kinda neat
haha! on the right got things on the left also got
middle for my laptop at the back also stuff!!
from now im gg to clear it all let it dissapear
do some harry potter magic and let it all be neat

woke up feeling better!new day good day!


i dk why but i feel like so how to say erm confused haha!
maybe u'll just nvr get to know how i truely feel
and maybe i'll nvr get to know how u truely feel

im just maybe dissapointed haha but yeah thats just how we humans are

this week has been idk and hi i miss idk hehehe
byebye

hey there i'm bethleen.

in the wondering world i will continue to explore and although it will suck me dry i will beam no matter what.

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