Sunday, September 27, 2009

hmmm ive not bloged for sometime haha idk what to post hahahha!!

wellwell but im enjoying my dayss love it and wont get sick of it
i guess ive been thinking quite abit and somehow i realise
for the first time since may that i actually i really am able to get over you
maybe after my phone blacked out on me and my msges were all gone
it was then that those memories were deleted too not willingly
buttt for the better i guess and yeah i still do think and all
but its somehow different its like hey beth thats the past yeah
got to move on kinda thing hahaha!!
i wish somehow that i will hold it forever cause it was so sweet and nice
butt when memories fade its timee you fade too
alrighttt i shall stop on that!!!

hmmm thats 1 thing im looking super forward to!!!
ipoh tripyyy yess have been going for workshop poly marine
and the pple are friendly so woohoo
and most imptantlyyyy i can get tanner HAHA
i miss all of you in singapore-land!!!! all my girls and boys!!!
so miss me too HAHAAHA

i enjoy slacking in the clubhse
i enjoy the steamboat in koufu
i enjoy eating pizzas
i enjoy youcamming
i enjoy the mango dessert
i enjoy the snack party
i enjoy cleaning the board HAHA
i enjoy writing aarons name in bold red
i enjoy calling u a physopath
i enjoy island cremery and im craving for nutella
i enjoy thinking of you
i enjoy the ugly truth
i enjoy time traveller's wife
i enjoy the indo fish in ps
i enjoy long phone convo in the toliet
i enjoy sleeping on my mum's bed
i enjoy eating in koufu! bake rice and beef rice
i enjoy late night talks at the badminton court

goodbye maybe i'll update before i leave for ipoh
xoxo!


so many stuff/things have been happening
its so hmmm i dont even know what to say
just felt like hmmm
sometimes i really wish may never end
cause it was the best and yet saddest month of
beth's history i guess as in i felt my heart cracked into pieces
and now after 4months i still hold on to something with
chances of 0%
god i wonder what are ur plans for me but i always know
god loves me and you too!!
i need a brainwash of my memories

sometimes its just so hard being yourself i guess
theres so much you have to consider
pple ard you and yadayada
but geniuely being who you are
makes you very happy
because you aint fake to yourself
you act cause its you
butttt then the bad side comes out
i've got a whole chunk of heartfelt words for you
what i always wished to tell you
but why cant i
its just a press send
and you will see it
i wish i could do it

sorry but now i know that deep down i like you so much
its you everywhere
yet the way i act is so.....fake
but ohwell i need to find comfort in others because all you do
is inflict pain which is no longer what i need
be true to yourself bethleen
and all is not gone
because there is god,family friends
its always tough
and tough being me
because now i know this is me

i miss pl so much the girls the fun the screams
we were all the same

i really truely wish you knew how i felt
fakeeeeee why!!!!!!!

hmmm i think this is the most blahblah post ever
butttt sorry i cant help it alr its kept so secretly
its killing me and i admit it
im giveing the redlight to stop
because the damage done is enough
byeee i need to find happiness in god not man .


i shall blog about my memoriable me day
happened on tues night yes awesome night

parents and bro had worship practice at night so
i was left to get my own dinner and all that yada stuff
then i decided to do without takeaways/dapau-ing
go to the coffeshop and eat by myself and
had to puy milk coffee for cute boy haha!!
so off i went with my music as company
headed to j8 went to s11 i think and had pontian mee
best ever maybe cause i was hungry and craving for it
sat outside and it was superr winding
wind blow my hair,music and eating
wowww it was so shiok and with alil texting here and there
just to remind me im still contexting via phone and received sad news
the wind reminded me of days in ausy-land
i rmb one night my dad suggested we sit outside next to the sea
with fish and chipsss which is the bestttt!! and i will always rmb the shopowners looks
they were closing and we came in not knowing they close at 8
they were kinda pissed haha butttt it was the best fish and chipsss ever
and we even had 1 free fishhh!!!
so yesss we sat outsideee freezzing my teeth was chatteringgg
i rmb how i kept walking around just to get some heat
till my mum said its too colddd i cant take it alr
dad what a brillant idea my mum said HAHA
yeahh seating at the coffeeshop, the wind and all
reminds me of how much i miss ausyyyy
and i rmb clearly that trip i got super pissed at my bro HAHA
and how he kept trying to unpiss me HAHA i think it was the period
anyway then the me day end with me heading to the libary cafe for
my cup of hot chocolateee
sat there for awhile sipping on my hot chocolate
and trying not to burn my tongue again
and let to buy milk coffee n teaa
walked homeee with my music and winddd
came back homee and my parents asked me what did i do and all
and told them abt my mee and how much i enjoyed it
andt they kept saying eating alone???
but i enjoyed it so very muchhh i kept saying it tasted so good!! HAHA
ohhh yeah and on the way home i wanted to eat jelly icecream
but dont have soo i much the lime and vanilla one instead
and licked it all the way home
haha another me day soon yeahhh soon
before sch is back and there goes my time
and my thoughts to rmb abt such stuff

night cycling later on!!!
im waiting for the saturday morning partttt
to just sittt at the beach with v and ee enjoyinggg
the simply pleasures in life
haha the scenery and im gonna eat maggi noodless at the same time
and snap picsss

hey there i'm bethleen.

in the wondering world i will continue to explore and although it will suck me dry i will beam no matter what.

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