Splashes of life

i just dont know

2011-03-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

here to say i am exhausted
one of my most exhausting periods

sometimes pple say its great to have someone there to listen and be there
you set high expectations and sometimes the things u wanna hear or the encouragement
you need just aint there
maybe the person is tired too and needs a break too
but cant just seem to say its dissapointing
its so hard and tough to smile and be fine
when you just cant
how?
stop trying maybe and pray hard
so hard but have faith

2011-01-26T20:27:00.000-08:00

hey blog! hehe!
so long since i came here!
life has been hectic and stressful anddd whatnots hehe!
but still great in a way? haha!
i like jieyu's studio nvr knew there could be life in that forest seh!
i always pass by there to town and always thought it was like for trekking?
haha! hope there will be another chance to go there haha!
have been spending mon-wed nights w mum only! for this week!
the men in our hse are busy hehe! bro staying at aunt's hse and my dad got night meetings!
doing housework w mum is accomplishing! fast get it done!
then bnj icecream! yummm! its like i get to eat more without the men ard!
happy me! hehe!
and today i went out without my ezlink card again!!!
sooo always fogetful siannn!
im craving for koi ehh!! maybe grab it at bugis later?
haha and im not going to sch todayyy!! haha finally! i feel so crampped gg to sch quite often!
okeys i think enough of ranting hehe! bye for now!

2010-12-08T06:48:00.000-08:00

sometimes i just feel lost
i rather be busy then not haha
but when im busy i feel lazy
then when im not busy, i still slack
ok i dont know if this all makes sense
the bottom line is omgggg im freaked out w myself

immm 20!!!! and i feel like ive not acheived much haha
but yup seriously and that feeling sucks
sooo i should kill those lazy buggers in my life
and start feeling hardworking like sec sch
study my books away!
but this time i want to make use of my life!
see what i wanna do in life pursue it
and dont regret!

some fishmongers might not have a choose of job!
but some fishmonger do! cause they just love their job!
we all have chooses and we when we regret
we cry and blame but we can reverse it
by making the right choice
bethleen needs to make the right choices.................

2010-11-21T16:31:00.001-08:00

hiiiiii! hehe i came to blog haha!
leaving the house at 11 so yeah still got some time to kill!
life has actually been fine and great too!

have been sleeping w my mum for a week!
cause dad is sick and mum wont be able to sleep well!
a bug bed man but i still prefer mine got my own cozy space for me to fumble ard
i brought hamyy and my bolster over!
and mum has been talking to hamy everyday!
once she said: hamy's fav brkfast is chocolate milk so he can get his dark choco skin
hahahah!! i laughed hard! and it was in e morning like 8am or so!
might move back to my bed soon! haha
i diy-ed some more notebooks! inspired by envelopes haha! seeing quite alot of them!
and home i keeps dropping st's postage sticker by v!
yeah somehow i feel full-filled this week!
things have been settled and im actually happier now!
we all have to go out to find it and grab!
cause ultimately only u urself can make urself happy!
er dont know if that makes sense but yeah!!
lets all be happy! life is too short to be so sad!
will blog soon abt the other random eventsss!

2010-11-01T01:06:00.000-07:00

hey jumping-jets hehe im saying hi to my blog
anywayzzz i think im closing it down or maybe just leave it like that
yeah i doubt i will blog again ohwell haha!
i dk what to blog anymore cause my thoughts
has been crazyy! crazy i feel im gg crazy heehe!
but im fine in another way i guess!
my fyp is one sad case i feel lost at times ohwelllllz
bye jumpingjets u've been great haha! my poly memories!
xoxo for now

2010-10-19T18:39:00.000-07:00

i realised my table is overly cluttered although its kinda neat
haha! on the right got things on the left also got
middle for my laptop at the back also stuff!!
from now im gg to clear it all let it dissapear
do some harry potter magic and let it all be neat

woke up feeling better!new day good day!

2010-10-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

i dk why but i feel like so how to say erm confused haha!
maybe u'll just nvr get to know how i truely feel
and maybe i'll nvr get to know how u truely feel

im just maybe dissapointed haha but yeah thats just how we humans are

this week has been idk and hi i miss idk hehehe
byebye

2010-10-10T01:48:00.000-07:00

hey im back to this spaceee!!!

this week has been fun!! 2nd last week of hols so duper fast
time fliesss like who knows what!

wanted to post some pics of japan but its in my hdd! so heres an old one hehe!

i did some flipping through japan stuff last night and felt so

miss japan feeling! like gg to design festivals and soaking into everything design!

getting lost in japan was funny and the train station master who totally ignored us!

cause he was changing shift omg that was like huh we are lost and u ignore us!

how we would come back feeling duper whoper tired and how i would just

flop to bed and fall asleep

and wake up duper early for breakfast buffets which are awesome!!!

miss those croissones and milk!!!

and eating alot alot like those tako ballss

and also those annoying argh pple who kept thinking we were blur

and what nots! leave us alone hehe!

the weather was niceee!!

things were actually ok price-ing!!

and hehe i still got the cheese cake box we had on the last day of japan!
ben ziza yusri and ling haha!!! we shared the cake which was whooohoo!licious!

and how we bought snacks to share since we had to flush of the cash!

its like i rmb japan at the tip of my finger tips hehe! so funnnn leh haha

and sleeping on the long bus rides!

im so going back to japan like afew years later although there wont be dxpd alr

sad but go back for design festivals!! its an amazing feeling being wowed at designs

and designers! feel so good feeling! and go back for the food of course!

cant leave without eating good food! street food and restaurants!

YUM YUMMMM!!

hehe! ok back to my week!

i worked for 2days!

went to eat swensens not bad should go eat!

went uss! quite fun! not as scary as i thought though but still fun!

went shopping w my mummy!

goonaaa get a new phone sony e again! haha!

and gonna quit my job soon! im taking a break!

and next week is gonna be a fun week! enjoy before itsss back to sch!

and now im gonna start on fyp hehe byeeeeee

wordy to e maxxxx post

2010-09-30T07:00:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder how long more can i take it
maybe not that long haha
anyway i wish i could travel its the hols so wanna wanna travel
kinda regretted not enjoying my hol to msia haha cause now i crave to travel
super duper badly!!
life has been mundane
running around workk
gg out, family yeah nothing much
and yeah falling sick!!! with the irritating fever and all
to spoil my hols!
my saving plan is right on trackk hehe!!!!
and my weight is back at the fortiess
whoppy whop whop!
so freaking happy dee dee dop!!
hmmm i pray my hols will be more exciting haha
yeah dont know how just hope got some spice to it hehe!!
byebyeee!!

2010-09-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

it felt nice that mum was home since thurs to sat and ofcourse sun yet to come! weekends mah!
only if mum didnt have to work then! i think i will be stay home kid!
like in sec sch! got hang out with friends but love to go home too!
got bro and mum! noisssy and can chit chat and more focus haha!

today jogged w mum!
i brought a dress from the usual shop!quite some time since i bought clothes
2 plus weeks or 3weeks haha!
love the dress!
homed! search for fyp stuff
mum talk to me phycho-ing me to giv her small hamy!
awwww love my mum to bits
headed to noven square! the place i work haha
new urban male cause got 50% off i got news slippss!!
then to eat ayam penyet yummm!!
and grocerry shopping hehe so long since i went out w my parents!
and esp grocerry shopping! its nice can buy stuff and parents pay
but ofcourse not cause parents pay more of the fun!!
bought bak kwa too!
and homeddd cause my sick bro home alone awww!!!
tmr meeting ht yippey! haha!

im in loveeeee with my dress feel so happy!!! buying pretty clothes make me happy!
was eyeing on the pocket tee but er i think ex and matured ah! HAHA

2010-09-11T20:46:00.000-07:00

i cant seem to write like how i wish i could!
i used to write abt my days!! but aiyoh nowadays im just rambling
im getting older and complaining more hehe!
everything has been changing so much around me
its so i dont know how to explain haha
i wish i can pack my bags now and just travel ard go ard
do whatever i want soak up just abt anything i see
and mum just asked me to go on a trip w her afew days ago
i say hong kong! haha! butttt i need $$$ so im really really trying to save up
but i dont wanna work too much either cause i wanna enjoy my hols! hehe
so i got a saving plan!
and i got a dieting plan! like finally

then again life too short! have to live it to the fullest!!
beth is gonna try to be nice and just stuck it up!!!! everything will fall into place
if you give it try or not u will always be stuck and asking urself why am i stuck
hehehehe!!

2010-09-08T02:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes in our little corner
we wish we could just tell the person how we felt
our dissapointment even if its for the slightest little thing
down there in our heart we feel the crack
but just how sometimes we rather not say
its safer that way only the person hearing it will
feel dissapointed less pple sad will be a better thing
always have to tell urself keep stuff to urself will only bring u harm
but sometimes theres just no way u can bring urself to say it
the phases we have to all go through sometimes just sucks
always hope tmr will be better

2010-08-31T07:02:00.000-07:00

time fliesss man its flying right this sec too!
today at marina bay area, peini and i were talking abt russel!
and our unforgettable trip to f1 racing place!
walk like hours, feeling so freaking cheated and never trusting that guy
wah i will always rmb that day i could kill him man haha!
memories of cycling and how one fine day, cycling became part of us!
it wassss fun i must say through everything crap or not that we went through!
we made one close friend v! haha ws and aaron! haha!

looking past at all these i feel nostalgic! and just how sad yet how happy
hmm!hmm! memories man! shall go do my stuff

2010-08-20T03:36:00.000-07:00

maybe i'll blog abit
im not feeling that good so since ive got this space i wish to write it all out
but i cant ohwell

i wish right now i could play soccer just like how i used to a couple years back
with all the kids how i injured my toe
screamed like no ones business
and played and had so much fun

i made a bet to myself i'll only write happy stuff, sad stuff are just too sad
ohwell i shall write when im happy then
happy weekends

2010-08-15T00:09:00.000-07:00

i find myself strange haha!
im feeling something that is kinda wrong
it is wrong but i cant control that feeling yettt
i wanna control it haha!
i dont know if im talking any sense but yeah agrh so annoying
i need to know that i cant change my mind and be so fickle!
i cant hurt anyone whaaatttzzzup hehee!

anyway im not really looking forward to work partly cause of the aftermath!
i will be tired and lazy!
and no bethleen cant feel this feeling tonight its a big NOOO! k!
work yst was alright and vvv hehe im not gg to work much alr actually im not really working much la just that im really broke right now!
like really broke but i cant wait for my pay long way to go though!
cause i feel like treating myself with everything!
byebye

2010-08-07T22:41:00.001-07:00

im back to work!!
and it was quite interestinggg!
having the feeling of first day jitterss and all but hehe it went alright
the happenings are:
-one customer forgot to pay and we realised it super late
in the end they came back
-my er distant uncle and aunt passed by and we chat
-the indonesian family who took turns to take picture with each other
4 of them!! cute and i took a pic for them!
-oh yeah actually i took another pic for a couple too!
-was freaking mesmerized by the angmo couple w 3 amazingly preety girls
freekles on their cheekkkss!
- i only started to get bored after my break to ard 6!
-dinner was duper busy till the end
-my parents fetched me!!!
did i forget anythingg?
hmm i had spaggi w sausage
drank quite abit of icelemontea!
anddd im gg to work again on weekends!!!
HAPPY BERRRRTHDAY BER

2010-08-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

hey im im feeling tired haha
although i do sleep quite alot haha

anyway i was just thinking yeah something crossed my mind
making decisions when u grow older is like
10million xxxx times much more harder
cause its more er complicated
when we were younger there werent much decisions to make
maybe casue our parents made it for us or
we are just almost decision free
agrhhh actually ive got this really big decision to make and im just
stuck! ohwelll im just gg to sleep and hope tmr will be a better day hehe

2010-07-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

hellooo world!!!
i had one of the shiockest sleep ever
rainy day somemore and uninteruppted sleep
i rmb texting v, talking to my dad then suddenly my mind say go to room
flop drop and fall dead to bed

yst was an alright dayyy
hmm i guess crit was not bad buthahha hmm ok maybe>: hehe
foaminggg begins soon
and yayyy im happy for everyone! we did our best!
thank god too!!
thanks to everyone too! S AND V! for hearing me out in dalian
and just everything i miss dalian i miss the memories there!
thank goddd i got a brain to rmb such memories cause
its too freaking awesome!!!!

towned with ht yst!
and the embarrasing thing that happened was the bag i was holding
decided to snap open at town!! the outside taka/wisma stretch!
and ok i realised my stuff drop!
then 2 pple came over
1 with my book
the other w my rubber duckie!!!!!!!! shit man yesss
ive never brought out a rubber duckie
and for the first time ever i dropped it on the streets!
the 2 guys were extremely funny!!
1 say oh thats the only 2 things u dropped nothing else alr in that extremely funny accent
the other the rubber duckie guy on mannn just hahahah day man!!
anyway enjoyed ysttt alot
to the xoxo bit of my heart
adiosss!!! meeting mummy
and vvv and the othersss for dinner!!
boommms!
im out

2010-07-22T21:15:00.000-07:00

when the world stops spinning
and when its left with 2 of us thats
all that matters

i see everything breezing past me
the changes in pple and the places

and hehe i just saw the ice cream whom i bought ice cream from 2 yrs back
he still sells ice cream downstairs
he still drives that van
and he still stands on a chair

haha cause of 74 i dont walk pass that carpark so it took me 2yrs
to see him again and i rmb he talked to me the first time i bought from him
will things say the same just like how the ice cream man is still an ice cream man 2 yrs later
things that are meant to will stay
but things that aint will go i guess

waiting for daddy to come back at 3
hope i will be productive
got to cause the days are numbered

2010-07-12T23:30:00.000-07:00

i feel so accomplished cause

i packed my room today!!!!!!
cleaned up all the dust!
threw quite alot of stuff
and! i changed my bed sheets!
so fresh and clean now
and re-arranged my cute animals hehe!
and now hammy is on my bed!
mummy gave it bk to me hehe!

now all i have to do is to get my lazy bum back to work
not housework! but sch work!
zhou yi and ideation!

but now im craving for desserts!! shall go buy them
in the hot sg weather!
show some love mr sun hehe!
byezzzzz!

i came to rock out this party

2010-07-11T02:56:00.000-07:00

im back to listening to english songs!

back to a fine frenzy! omg love her songs love her voice too!

i dont know why but sch doesnt feel like sch haha!
like hmmm i just lost the vibe of the fun of sch
and theres 3days class ):
at least im not late anymore other than for once
the zhou yi's lesson sian!!! i think i dont really like his
lesson partly cause of the phone fine which is dumb
and his english ok haha!

dont really bumb into pple anymore
dont really have much to laugh abt
dont really have much to day haha

but im actually rather happy on the other side

the quietness
the where i get back to other stuff
i still miss dalian and somehow my thoughts drift to travelling
back to the ausy days its really fun in ausy!
gg to the beach when its chilling with the view so awesome!
eating the best fish n chips in the cold
eat the best pies! and everything nice!

i dont really know how to describe my feelings for now
like my phrase of life
but yeah i know im happy just that haha i dont know too
once i know i will start to fill in the blanks

ok anyway my mum jus told me if one doesnt shit a day
its equeals to smoking 3packs of cigs a day!
what thatttt toxic!!
im so glad im shitting everyday!
but how abt dalian days?????
errrr!! just omg man
okey off i go

2010-07-04T03:41:00.000-07:00

im bored and hungry
mums cooking dinner so yay!!

anyway today my bro cooked lunch for me for the first time!
maggi mee haha! but wah i can smell the maggi from my mums room sia!
and its nice smell! haha my bro is quite the prefectionist actually so yeah
not bad! just that its salty!! and i dont quite like salty maggi mee
haha!

i can predict this sem is gonna be very theee busy!
cause yeah in 1 month got to come out with the idea
make it great, do the packaging
print it out, do the boards
and ppt and im crossing my fingers for no report!
plssss no report cause im having extreme phobia the thought
of it makes my brain shut down!
like no joke haha!

i dont know why but these days ive been thinking alot abt my future
and yeah ive come to terms with the fact that im in yr3
graduating next yr!
20 this yr!
and i have not gotten my driving license yet!
and i feel i have not achieved much

ive realised i was so motivated in sec sch
as i grow older my motivation depletes!
which is i thought as pple grow older wont it increase and not decrease haha

then again ohwell there it goes back to my point that i miss sec sch so much
i wish i will always and forever stay at that period!

oh yeah just rmbed i can change my phone!!!!
im finally changeing this so super duper problematic phone
so hooray hooray man!
so im gg to surf the net for my the next phone!

byebye
and happy 1st month haha!

forever happy

2010-07-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

everyday is a happy day because i got ht!

and its gonna stay happy forever

<3333333333333333333333333

xoxo
beth

ohohoh its freedom soon!

2010-06-29T13:16:00.000-07:00

after handing it report in a few hrs timei'lllllllllll be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
im excited! causeeee this week which is the first week which most of the time is the slackest of all weeks have just became the week ive forcedddd myself to say awake
and its been an accomplishment! so swesome!
wooohooo! im actually dead tired but i still got report
ok bye!! hehe!

happy kid

2010-06-27T08:54:00.000-07:00

i was just thinking of something random

my friend just said im not always happy like you

haha but as i was thinking its like hmmm everyone has choices
and like being happy is a choice and being emo is also a choice

but then again theres so much in life that can make one emo!
and though u so wanna be happy, sometimes its just so hard cause the matter takes over you totally and then u become so stuck into it. but i guess once u let the whole matter get into u, u lose urself man and er thats kinda sad haha

then again anything can make u smile, laugh, bring out so easily too
like idk why must i just get so tickled when someone falls or something bad happens to them not because i wanna laugh at the person but is cause their expression!! and i always get to see it! idk why too but yeahh i alws see it and i just cant helpppp it. i just rmbed abt mj and the cup that he wanted to give his buddy and it broke! omggg okok! hahaah im so baddd!

okkkk im done yanking haha siannnnnnn actually i think im just finding an excuse to take a break from ai!!!! cause its really killing me! killllllllll meeeeeeee!
i dont wanna touch ai after this welllllllllll i hope!!!

sian!! i my as well do millions of reports then to render a phone!! but then again its an awesome skill to have ok siannnnn byebye! haha

sian day!

2010-06-22T23:20:00.000-07:00

feeling so lazyyy to do anything at all!! siannn to the max!

illustratorrrrrr rahhhh! haha and reporttt eh so sian lehh!
i need some kind of motivation any will do like maybe a it savyy kind
that does 1 side of the hp in 1hr plus or doesnt get stuck! or yeah just a brillant brain la!
i'll be the happiest kid in town!

ok i go bathe first eat a chocolate bar then start doing haha!

hmmm somehow its still surreal to me that im back in spore!
i miss dalian i wonder if im there right now what would i be doing?
haha no class then should be running to v's room disturbing her haha!
or if hot presentation tmr then in the roon with wl doing work!
and then can think of what to eat for dinner!

i miss the cream puffs and the cream alwss drops on my home shorts haha!
sooo siannn! haha okk enough of siannn!

off to bathe! its raining heavillyyy raining cats and dogs and siannnnnnn!!

byebye sian day!

2010-06-17T19:39:00.000-07:00

shall update this space alittle!

wellll i miss spore so much! and then my life goes back to normal

i have been jus thinking alil abt everything goes its moving so fast
i so wanna sieze every moment

i enjoy everything i have right now and yeah im happy like happy haha
sooo lets see what i have to do now!

clear my room! and the million of stuff which is i find it messy too
the report and ppt!
illustrator and idt!
meet all the pple i miss!
work at the cafe geeee like when am i gonna be free k
then ya and just dream!

ok thats all for now byebye!

2010-06-12T01:00:00.000-07:00

BETHLEEN IS BACK TO ROCK THE HOUSE!!!!

omyyy hmm maybe not really back yeah cause im in msia!
but im near sg! so near home!

anyway!!! blog i miss u! i miss my life! i miss everything!
anddd everything has changed! i guess!!

i will blog once im really back from sgggg!!

SO HELLOOOO!!! to anyone reading hehe yayyy you read!
haha!! byebye for now

2010-04-03T21:25:00.000-07:00

hihihihi!!!!
life has been soooo hmm how to phrase it
anywayyy itp has been fine haha free food, mocha spin which is so gooddd
im seriously loving the lib cafe!
zha jiang mian yummyy! and the gummy bears which are all gone but anyway
work at the cafe has been fine another than pple are leaving jus as i started to get to know them
butt there are so many kpop fans there!! blast korean musicc
my life is like a speedboatt i run with time
i chase it so hhaha can be kinda cool at time
i jus wish i can spend my life as a beach resort snap pics stay in the sea and all
butttt ok back to reality i jus have to much to do before going to dalian
so many pple to meet to much to say and so much to miss!!
but it will all be well
it will
haha i feel my blogging is starting to get boring haha
got to start my log book soon agrhh im gonna make it a short one
before i got workk i get to see jmmm the crazy girl
and next week will be a bright week
next week will be the last week at the cafe
ohhh i think i should start making a list of things to bring

anddd i bought a cute illustrated schd bookkk
im goonna write stuff there so i wont forget anything
its so cuteeee
then yeah got to pack my room before i leave sgp
bank in my cheque i got my pay yay!!!
my headphones!!
apply for driving once i come bk cause i wanna get the license before by 20th bday!!
like by hook or crook must pass!!
and buyyy pretty clothes in dalian haha girlsss
and hmmm nothing much
nowadays i dont think much cause lifes too short just treasure it i guess

and HAPPY BDAY VVV BELATED ONEEE I LOVE U ALOTTTTTT XOXOOOOXOXO

hi

2010-02-28T05:48:00.000-08:00

somehow my blog is workingg!!
miracle!
shall update about my lifeee
hahah feel like typing
work has been fun!!!
seriouslyy busyyy just the way i like it!!
other than the wedges so slippery almost drop!
pple there are friendly
other than its tiring standing
yeah!! got cotton on cheap dealss xoxo
thennn yeah!! im doing well
moving on!! finally!
i got the bicc for a week!!
freaking excited man!!
planning on peirce resevoir and many others!!
tuessss when im free!!
tmr is work before 2 days break!!
miss all my friends man!!
to all my friends starting tmr aja aja fighting man!!
am gonna get some $$$$!!!
no more broke kid
and what elseee
wish theres no itp so i can enjoy my hols man!!
so much is planned yet so little time
sad pancakes man!
S!!! be stronggg!! you can do it
time healss xoxo u all the way!!
oh yeah and excited for escape theme parks
the thrill rides wheeee
bye for now
korean drama mama!

heyy!

2010-02-09T19:47:00.000-08:00

im here to rant abt how its so unfairrrr!!
that vvv always gets to see cute boy
and i dont boohoo CUTEZ BOYZ 101!!!!
cheezzzeburgerzzz cant believe it
i went gaga too thanks to u
then!..... i had one extremely salty panty
extreme and i went back to my mc spicy!!!

i wanna see cute boy just onceeee
agrhhh my headd is spining

i feel so over the place
cnyyyy pls some though it wont be like really work free
but atleast got family reunion! see my cousinszzzz
be a kid again!
the whole atmosphere yeah!
and most impt THE FOODDD
cooked by gorgeously awesome cooks
though i guess my cny wont be that exciting now without my chou chou
buttt stillll its one awesome festival with family!!!
and my 2 bodyguards might be coming!!

hey and auntiesss,v and all! lets plan one cny gathering too!!
we shall just feast and yank like what we do best
and maybe to one no epic failll choco fondue!!! haha

alright back to work bethleenn!!!! you have to do it
everything is on the line

and just 1 more thing its deja vu!
soon in june just like last june
im heading back to where i belong the sea!!!!
haha i belong to the sea!
i rme go the places u wanted to go
mexico to eat jumping beans btw what in the world is that
as i think abt it it reminds me of V!! hahah and her voice that will go jumping beans???
just like cabinet??? cubicle???
hahaha actuallyyy i realise something life can be so interesting and funny to e max
justtt that the pain we go through and sadness wellows us!! it brings us downnn all the way
so why not we just rmb the happy stuff
ahhhh my head ok i better faster do my work so that the com radiation can some hurting my head
and one more thing!!
i need sleep ok bye!!
i cant wait to buy materials later HAHA!!!

where am i

2010-02-07T02:29:00.000-08:00

i can just feel how totally different we are
and theres so much i regret saying
words hurt
but yet you are such an awesome individual i can nvr
see myself distancing away from you

you know the whirlwind of thoughts blow my mind
im just at the point of giving up
but the word choices keeps popping up
and my mum
and finally i cant disappoint myself

can't life just be easy
nope easy shoudn't be even in a dictionary

sadness floods journey
tmr is gonna be a better day

dear lord
i pray tmr will be a good day i can bring myself to smile
day by day i feel i have lost myself to the world
and its just so tough to be sane
and more so human.
im thankful for my mum's upmost love for me.

i really wonder what the future would be?
would i be a happy person in the future
would the pple i love and treasure still be here right by me
it all boils down to choices

just thoughts

2010-01-26T06:29:00.000-08:00

sometimes when life gets tough
its just too fast till you dont have the time to regret
to treasure
then people start leaving
dearest of the dear
you dont understand why must it happen but it still does
new ones come along
thats part and parcel of life
i might be still waiting since its only been like day3/4
but aint it sad
what used to be habit
forced it to be a habit now driftss
never felt secured with you
now it seems its testing all over again
sometimes i wish life could be as simple as it was in pl
study, recess maybe some drama for either talking/eating/late for class/caught for uniform days like these haha then deciding where to hang out j8 or heartland mall.
head home study abit, watch drama shows and off to sleeping beauty mode
haha those were my sec sch days
no boyzz problems no nothing
haha innocent crazyy go girls drama
nothing emo nothing nothing
cry maybe over stress in sch
occasional crushes just for fun nothing serious

now its different maybe i just learned new things at an older age
got heart broken older haha
found out new things just older
i like my life thats for sure
just that sec sch was much simplier much like what i liked

we now live so much so different lives
im so happy for my friends just that i miss them so much
they are so far away

rennu is awaiting good news from tp
shams will be heading to msia for 3 yrs):
jo is in ngee ann
cassandra is working
jeanne in laselle
stef is working too
and me in sp
our dreams our hopes our aspirations in sec sch
so innocent dreams girl in blue uniforms and white belts
yanking abt what we wanna be

rennu wanted to be a phychologist
shams wanted to be a physicol therapist
stef wanted to be a singer and teacher
jo she was thinking of maths teacher
jeanne wanted to be graphic designer
cassandra wanted to be a consellor
and i, i rmbed asking them if i was funny? was i cut out to be a comedian
haha funny but that was true haha

when i grow up.....
seems like im almost all grown up
gonna be 20 this year

with so many insecurities and all my up and down moods for the start of 2010
no matter what i await this yr haha its abit late for a hello 2010
nah didnt think i'll write so much but
yeah to sum it up i just wish life was simplier
so much more
so much so i wish i could just go home after sch everyday with nothing in my mind
i dont have to think abt anything
just do what im passionate abt
doest passion keep u going?

dear lord i pray that i will not lose anyone dear to me
i will excel and make wisomable decisions
and lastly i will let u go
amen

go create memories that will last because its time to let go the old ones

2010-01-09T02:19:00.000-08:00

move on
days are hazed
fun and laughter
eat and food
or food and eat
then the joy of friends
the irritates of all moods
the decisions of decisions
the intensity
then comes in the whys
and the im no longer me

the croquet or pocket
its croquet

omgg im for addicted to korean listening songs
i need it plugged i repeat it
haha hello week 2 of school

you are too good

2010-01-01T17:23:00.000-08:00

goodbye goodbyegoodbye 2009
you are the best thing that ever happened this year
cause u made me happy
though you are gone now im still glad
i got to know you
so goodbye c maybe we'll meet again in 2010
haha letzs see

anddd i love all my friendsss everyone of you is super duper precious to me
thanks for making my year awesome nonetheless

schs starting and im totally not prepared yet
sad case man! its the last sem and
gee wish i had a time machine
everythings moving way too fast
i need timeee to haha take in everything
i dont wanna regret again oh well

heading to ikea and omg!! dessert
and theres another one at commonwealth
wow i wish everything could be spent hunting for good food
ohmy sucha pig i am! butttt i think investing on food is so much better
it errrr. haha fill in the blanks!

i miss eating morning buffets in japan
the potato salad and and just everything
is yummy milk and just abt everything!
kL buffets toooo omg!! i need to marry a chef
haha!

actually wanted to do a 2009 post thinggg but
haha maybe soon cause theres so much to say and yeah
more laughters less tears!
its been a yr i learnt hmmm maybe my eyes saw so much more
than my brain an capture
anddd i seriously realised my brain is duper small
infor in and out it goesss
how can!!!!
should i go steal a smart brain
and just fly to the oxford/harvard hahaah!
ok good day folks!!
i cant spend a dime today errr is that even possible
yesss spend money on food only!
adios

2009-12-22T21:56:00.002-08:00

haha my blogg is still in the photobucket state and i so dont know
what to do but i feel like blogging so haha here i go long wordy whatever post
just for me to read in yrs down the road imma still alive HAHAAH!

today i found out something so so sooo surprising
you blog about me
you got a blog
im in your life
it was nice
now you are out haha
and i do miss it
you are one funny person
that i want to know more
but theres no longer an opportunity
and nahh it wont come again
i cant just suddenly u know

and then theres another person
who i always wanted to know
i thought i know you
but now you shock me
ok haha im confused
who are you
and who am i to you anyway

quite exciting i did some stuff im quite proud of
and im soooooo relieved

but i found out that ive lost it
i just lost it!!!!!!!
i tried so hard to get it back
but its been months and its so important
cause passion cant be lost
haha.

i dont even know what this post is for
im just in such a regetful stage i wish nothing left me
nothing changed
and lord i pray i will treasure the pple ard me
so they wont leave
and i wont be sad
you were that cute thing to me
goodbyee world
i'll be back when i finally realise
what i was fighting for
when i came in
last april
i fought so hard just to lose the me,
nahhh its not cccc because im just no longer me
goodbye

today

2009-11-16T09:21:00.000-08:00

today i played taylor swift on my playlist
the album i'll always play when i think of you
for idk what reason
sitting at the bus-stop at 10 plus rmbing that faithful day
u said u wished u had a car
and then did i wonder how much more do i miss you
and how much more can i rmb

i love koufu;s kopi bing not that im a fan of koffee
and vitasoy! seriouslyyy awesome
tmr is tuesday!
it is tuesday
ohwell tuesdays
please be good to me!
i hope with all my heart!

happy birthday dear thing!

2009-11-14T21:23:00.000-08:00

i wanna rmb that smile
that day
its melts me and crumbles me like
apple crumble haha!

happy birthday siew teng!
the first ever classmate i knew in dxpd!
the aunty i called first and later we were known as aunties
when we are like what! only 18s and 19
the joy the excitement we share
the ups and downs!
its awesome!!
continue to stay strong yeah
we can pull through anything cause we are aunties what!
more crazy drama to come
i love u always and forever see u in sch tmr!
love u happy 18 my one and only SIM SIEW TENG!

be my remedy

2009-10-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

the sad the sad the sad truth
this vicious cycle is seriously getting into me
i seriously needa pray for a miracle
nothing seems to cure anything
the sad truth
i wish i could just drop everything
and run never stop
never turning back
never feeling tired
it never gets more sad then this
i can hardly control
i dread tues i used to love them
ohwellll maybe i just dread even doing anything starting with c
whats up with me
whats up with u
remedyyyy

one day over im back

2009-10-20T18:29:00.000-07:00

it might be a vicious cycle
butttttt
suddenly i had that gush of hope
yst was bleak
woke up feeling bleak
but now suddenly
i dont care anymore
like i dont feel like telling him
cause whats the point
going back to aquare one
where we were in may aint what i want
i just want to tell u how i feel
but is that even important
if hmmm u have moved on
and if i dont want to get hurt again
so i just leave with it now
and time will heal
time can get over
but nah next week the same story might happen
99% happen true
might at least for yst i only suffered for
0ne day
cause im backkkkk

2009-10-16T10:32:00.001-07:00

to the woman i love most
to the woman who i know i loves me most too
to the woman who bore me
to the woman who took care of me
to the woman who understood me
to the woman who took me for who iam
to the woman who will never ever give up on me
to the woman i hurt sometimes
to the woman who is the prettiest of all

to my mum the one and only
i love you forever and ever
its your birthday
and i will spend every birthday with you
just like how u will spend mine with me

2days ago i learnt prob a lesson i will nvr forgot
and realised the greatest of all is
YOU

i cant sleep hahaha!!

2009-10-16T10:12:00.000-07:00

the nostalgic feeling keeps coming back haha
i miss ltc.its totally rocking my socks.
i have no idea why.hopefully can get to see them nextwk
steamboat that we craved for haha!! and we still thought
that pot was ours!!
ok hmmm since i cant sleep i shall just rant abt whats on my mind
miss the ipoh times causeee
i didnt even rmb the date
didnt rmb the time
just did whatever we were told
just ate when we had to
and allll
maybe the only thing i could really rmb was
i was freaking cold in the morning
cause the temp is brrrr cold
and the bathing water is super cold too
it freezes my brain
and then theres my crazy bunch of grp mates
ryan who loves to tease me and always make that zeck sound
and that blowing joke gosh and who came at 7.30am
thinking he was early and he is in cycling club!
and the list goes on kinda lazy to type everything
ok but its just fun to the bomb with them
i laugh like no ones business
and its just so freee
gosh dont know how to explain
but just miss them alot
and esp the shopping trip in ipoh town
we went to and fro pasa malem and shopping centre so many times
and raining somemore but what a thrill man
and the 5sec traffic light joke of the century ok
hmmm but i realised something
i still thought of you
aiyohhh during bowling!!
yes i bowled after dont know how long
and i enjoy bowling
and haha ofcourse the crazy company
and how we felt so super hungry
we bowled so fast so that we could eat
and we had like 1 of the best bowls of hor fun ever
and we went back to the rm at 1am plus to realise we got locked out of our rooms
our keys were with us
but okkk thats just hilarious
and my room was so freaking cold
our teeths chatted non-stop
and we cant even adjust the temp!!
but i still slept like a log cause
im those once on bed
i fall alseep in an instant
ok
i still
cant sleep
hahahaha!!
are you back yet i wonder
aiyohhhh its all abt you huh!
ok bye before i type non-stop

what makes me love you?

2009-10-09T18:07:00.000-07:00

i love boarding the bus
cause i get to see the indian driver
that smiles and says good morning to u and everyone
and makes ur day very happy yet catching u off guard
and he offs the aircon when its freaking cold

i love eating the steamboat because it makes
me so freaking happy boiling everything and its so shiok
and it reminds of the lasttime ur friends came over for steamboat
and u asked me what should u buy and that was the day u told her too
i wonder what happened! anyway i would go eat that steamboat whenever im sad
cause it makes me like a kid making me happy

i loved fame/enjoyed it much with chee yi wei
and when marco played the piano as it reminded me of that time
u played it for me for over a minute over the phone and u asked me whether
it was good haha i didnt know what that piece was soooo haha
but at least i heard u play
though its only once good enough for me at least!

i love having phone calls with u once again cause it brings bk memories
yeah though idk what should i do cause somehow i know things are different
and actually sometimes i dont know just who are you yeah
but whatever it is i still enjoy ur company and forever will cause
u are just that very special friend

im slowly getting it slowly enjoying it
slowly making progress slowly doing it

and slowly being back to me
the me that i knew the me that was me
i happy cause hurt and tears no longer belong in my dictionary
only lovely memories thats of the past
hold it dearly and continue to live

ipoh baby

2009-10-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

heyyy im back from ipoh back from ltc
and am right back to face reality haha
but all is greattt hehehe!!

the ohmygosh drama!
the skipping 17 times shocked all of us
washing plates cups and what nots using a hose
all the insects killing and screams hehe
lizard drama
getting crazy at the accessorize shop
eating 1rm icecream and buying alottttt
we are group tree!
blowing drama
walking out at 1am to grab cupnoodles
heading to the pasa malam and back to parklane manytimes
bought patrickkkk
AnWWWWW curly fries
whopper jr!
superduper coldd nights
sleeping bag to the rescue
packing all shorts!!
my small bagpack drama
ipoh hofun+ chicken+tauge+longan
koropokk feast
water rafting boomboom jumpjump
lovely rides in the lorry
water apsailing
caving-mummyyyy!!
shopping like crazy

thats sums up my adventure
pockets of stuff that makes me beam
and continue to be happy cause these people make it so

have caught up with many people
some unexpected random out of the blue
but i likeeee cause random is what we like
surprises in the mundane
10 more days before i get to see ur face
dk why not missing much
but just wanna see how u look like!!
1 more week to enjoyy
before its hardcore nerd mood for beth
comeon whooohoo

forever you

2009-09-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

hmmm ive not bloged for sometime haha idk what to post hahahha!!

wellwell but im enjoying my dayss love it and wont get sick of it
i guess ive been thinking quite abit and somehow i realise
for the first time since may that i actually i really am able to get over you
maybe after my phone blacked out on me and my msges were all gone
it was then that those memories were deleted too not willingly
buttt for the better i guess and yeah i still do think and all
but its somehow different its like hey beth thats the past yeah
got to move on kinda thing hahaha!!
i wish somehow that i will hold it forever cause it was so sweet and nice
butt when memories fade its timee you fade too
alrighttt i shall stop on that!!!

hmmm thats 1 thing im looking super forward to!!!
ipoh tripyyy yess have been going for workshop poly marine
and the pple are friendly so woohoo
and most imptantlyyyy i can get tanner HAHA
i miss all of you in singapore-land!!!! all my girls and boys!!!
so miss me too HAHAAHA

i enjoy slacking in the clubhse
i enjoy the steamboat in koufu
i enjoy eating pizzas
i enjoy youcamming
i enjoy the mango dessert
i enjoy the snack party
i enjoy cleaning the board HAHA
i enjoy writing aarons name in bold red
i enjoy calling u a physopath
i enjoy island cremery and im craving for nutella
i enjoy thinking of you
i enjoy the ugly truth
i enjoy time traveller's wife
i enjoy the indo fish in ps
i enjoy long phone convo in the toliet
i enjoy sleeping on my mum's bed
i enjoy eating in koufu! bake rice and beef rice
i enjoy late night talks at the badminton court

goodbye maybe i'll update before i leave for ipoh
xoxo!

sorry this post is sad

2009-09-05T03:50:00.000-07:00

so many stuff/things have been happening
its so hmmm i dont even know what to say
just felt like hmmm
sometimes i really wish may never end
cause it was the best and yet saddest month of
beth's history i guess as in i felt my heart cracked into pieces
and now after 4months i still hold on to something with
chances of 0%
god i wonder what are ur plans for me but i always know
god loves me and you too!!
i need a brainwash of my memories

sometimes its just so hard being yourself i guess
theres so much you have to consider
pple ard you and yadayada
but geniuely being who you are
makes you very happy
because you aint fake to yourself
you act cause its you
butttt then the bad side comes out
i've got a whole chunk of heartfelt words for you
what i always wished to tell you
but why cant i
its just a press send
and you will see it
i wish i could do it

sorry but now i know that deep down i like you so much
its you everywhere
yet the way i act is so.....fake
but ohwell i need to find comfort in others because all you do
is inflict pain which is no longer what i need
be true to yourself bethleen
and all is not gone
because there is god,family friends
its always tough
and tough being me
because now i know this is me

i miss pl so much the girls the fun the screams
we were all the same

i really truely wish you knew how i felt
fakeeeeee why!!!!!!!

hmmm i think this is the most blahblah post ever
butttt sorry i cant help it alr its kept so secretly
its killing me and i admit it
im giveing the redlight to stop
because the damage done is enough
byeee i need to find happiness in god not man .

bethleen's me day

2009-09-04T01:02:00.000-07:00

i shall blog about my memoriable me day
happened on tues night yes awesome night

parents and bro had worship practice at night so
i was left to get my own dinner and all that yada stuff
then i decided to do without takeaways/dapau-ing
go to the coffeshop and eat by myself and
had to puy milk coffee for cute boy haha!!
so off i went with my music as company
headed to j8 went to s11 i think and had pontian mee
best ever maybe cause i was hungry and craving for it
sat outside and it was superr winding
wind blow my hair,music and eating
wowww it was so shiok and with alil texting here and there
just to remind me im still contexting via phone and received sad news
the wind reminded me of days in ausy-land
i rmb one night my dad suggested we sit outside next to the sea
with fish and chipsss which is the bestttt!! and i will always rmb the shopowners looks
they were closing and we came in not knowing they close at 8
they were kinda pissed haha butttt it was the best fish and chipsss ever
and we even had 1 free fishhh!!!
so yesss we sat outsideee freezzing my teeth was chatteringgg
i rmb how i kept walking around just to get some heat
till my mum said its too colddd i cant take it alr
dad what a brillant idea my mum said HAHA
yeahh seating at the coffeeshop, the wind and all
reminds me of how much i miss ausyyyy
and i rmb clearly that trip i got super pissed at my bro HAHA
and how he kept trying to unpiss me HAHA i think it was the period
anyway then the me day end with me heading to the libary cafe for
my cup of hot chocolateee
sat there for awhile sipping on my hot chocolate
and trying not to burn my tongue again
and let to buy milk coffee n teaa
walked homeee with my music and winddd
came back homee and my parents asked me what did i do and all
and told them abt my mee and how much i enjoyed it
andt they kept saying eating alone???
but i enjoyed it so very muchhh i kept saying it tasted so good!! HAHA
ohhh yeah and on the way home i wanted to eat jelly icecream
but dont have soo i much the lime and vanilla one instead
and licked it all the way home
haha another me day soon yeahhh soon
before sch is back and there goes my time
and my thoughts to rmb abt such stuff

night cycling later on!!!
im waiting for the saturday morning partttt
to just sittt at the beach with v and ee enjoyinggg
the simply pleasures in life
haha the scenery and im gonna eat maggi noodless at the same time
and snap picsss

my days

2009-08-31T21:46:00.000-07:00

for change is what we seek in let it roll baby!

shall try to recollect all that has happened! haha
i went for an extremely impromtu haircut and i realised something sstrange about me
i dont cut my hair often but when i want to right i havehave to cut it that day
like too excited or what idk so strange but cool!
left the hair dresser's laughing at my decision for the snip
shortest after hmmm 3 yrs?

have been eating lots of good food during the stressful period
or more like the tutu train rides of beth's rushing madness
HAHAHA. i totally need time management trainings! VVVV is totally a great help

letsss se for now i love CURRY BALLS
the hot and spicy sensation! hmm awesome
durian pancakes more durian cakes
i wanna eat good tapioca flat pancakes
ahhh ya my hse got pasa malamm hmm TAPICOA PANCAKES
lotsss of shaker fries at bras besah
heading to bugis libary, plug findings
peace centre-the hongkong actor lookalike so cute la he
i want to pinch his cheeks
lots of rushing, panicking 30mins lateness haha
lots of mia-ing and now i miss the class haha
lots of treating aaron's calls as my alarm and snoozing it
lots of sofa naps
lots of late night comebacks
lots of yes cycling-mass sending
funny experience, mind blowing at times
being damn happy for positive replies
and cute is my new word
yessss i still find you damn cute haha!
double cheese burger and pokka milk coffee =perfect match
anddd lots of standing in the middle for impromtu discussions
ohh and yesss lots of purple line train rides
with overcharges HAHA
and lotsa thanks to aaron!
and lastly the funniest of all
carl's junior cheesy beefy fries
with the chair dropping incident
and the drama of meeting C
lots of laughter from uh hemmm aaron the crazy guy
haha

this sums up my 2-3 weeks of happenings haha!

its raining,its cold and i love it
should i take a nap but my hair wet haha
jacket with hoods on time!!
tata

happy thoughts anyone?

2009-08-03T17:46:00.000-07:00

happiness can sometimes be too much for words to even express it out
how to jot out that feeling when its just
unexpressible
the complexity without words
thrilling times in may
that words couldnt express
but had vivid memories
which is expressed in a different way
come back to me please those days
reading back i found out it held dearly to me
with little words to express
but deep happy memories alr engraved

haha not quite sure if the above makes senses but that randomness just came to me
so blog it down i did haha
yst was kinda life changing
i wonder what the future awaits
its filled with surprises good and bad
love the good ones

it was the period i didnt write about life
cause you were my thoughts
i wanted to capture that period with the happiness in me
thats mysterious but we aint literal
i will last long cause i no longer hold on to that hope
its better that way
i used to think you were the one
memories dont fade easily
so you wont fade from me either

i need a time machine badly!

2009-07-30T02:43:00.000-07:00

when will it ever be easy
to see you and act like everything is normal
im not fine and you are
those nudges and every part of me gets excited
those were the days
the good 'old times
1 wish
everything to be like it was
haha i'll pray hard! extremely

my one special friend i L you

2009-07-12T11:02:00.000-07:00

hmmm to someone special

you may think i no longer think of you
but actually i do, yeah everyday
and i treasure all that we had in the past and present
you will always have that special space in my heart
cause you are one special friend
i might not understand the drift
but one fine day we might just be back like how we used too
or maybe not
cause life is unexpected too unpredictable for now
walk down memory lane with you oneday
seasons come and go
ohwell!!!
anyway rennu i miss you alot and the cute baby too
and the baby likes me wheeee i'm good with kids aint i haha
peach tea and maggi mee the good old after school hideouts
or not its j8 or heartland mall
standing as a grp just to discuss where and what to eat
blocking the way haha in our very own world
the world of girls
cranky lame jokes like
why you go popular(the book store with 20% discounts i like)
to be popular la! HAHAH
oh then how about cheers( the convenience stall)
so cheer super loudly for our house team
oh archer, red maybe thats was my reason for the love of red
oh twin how i miss you.faster come back from aussie
my red hot partner!!! i miss those chinese classes
those sticky notes arent we nuts passing them when we sit just next to each other
and bus rides too yayyyyy you take to my home la
and lastly our weirdo maths teacher
tell me abt it man
i love the pure coincidence of how we got to know each other
the mole on our hand
epic past awesome future
come back now twin singapore is our homeland to make the mark!! hahah
gosh that was cliche wheee

alrighty back to realityyy
i need to finish up my work orelse no sleep
then meet cranky beth in sch later cause its morning alr

friday was fun!!! the day in the east shall blog abt it soon
but the night time part not so
wrong decisions=sad endings ohwell
it was at the moment so over,moveon
movemovemove

sanding days here i come
goshhh am i going to create more mess at home
ahhhhh I"M GOING TO BE NEAT
when shall i start hmmmm..
byeee i guess this is so gonna be long haha

are we humans or we are denser

2009-07-08T06:56:00.000-07:00

i cry
i laugh
i smile
i get hungry
i get bored
i get restless
i get unmotivated
i get stress
i panick at the disco
i dream of you
i rmb all the memories
i rmb everyone
i'm random
i love randome moments
i love random pple

i'm gonna be strong this is just to remind myself i'm still human
i still can feel.feelings means i still can move on
wind blow me down nomorenomorenomore
i wonderwonderwonder
HAPPY

cranky wanky and rmb cap day

2009-07-03T03:36:00.000-07:00

the day the camera cap drama enfolds

it tickles me up till today hahaha!

so hmmm how shall i start

no falling this time not embarrasing myself

just mind blowing yeah

thats how random i am i guess

its just epic how islam found the cap and everything fell into place

like a nice happy ending storybook.it ends and we are

waiting for another one to begin

ohhh geeee i would love to thank everyone who helped

without your help i guess i wont be able to reach northside!

i've got my legs wrapped in white leggings not black says my dad haha

yes the lovely physician he speaks english tooo my chinese barrier!

this yr not only am i gonna take my driving test i'm gonna speak proper chinese

alrightt here goes the pictures of that cap day wheeee

i'm kinda cranky ohwell pizza's calling

i feel so blessed

2009-06-23T19:53:00.000-07:00

you know me inside out ,when i'm happy or sad
high or crazy
so now that i truely know who you are
i'm gonna stick to who i know you as
not gonna turn back and waver
doubt doesnt make things any better
i will listen and be discerning too hehe thanksss
God will always be my guide yayyyyy
i feel really blessed for all you friends totallyyy
and thank god for a friend like you

a problem shared is a problem halved from red thread haha!!
Thanks V!! hehe i'm so much more sure really thanks awesome time yst hehe.

galpalll i loved and enjoyed those memories we created
push yourself when i'm online that way i can always try to motivate you when you're down
awww sweet nibblets
Thanks toooo

haha this is like a thank you post haha.i'm feeling so blessed right now
lalalalala woooooohoooooo

its thrilling

2009-06-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

yayyy i solved the problem temporal only!! so got pixs hehe

so sad dad's not inside i think he went to the car or something. thats my shy brother nottttt haha and my pretty mum who everyone says we are sister ah so it concludes that my mum is young and im older sad case .i love this shot alot

jonker street in malacca .perrier reminded me of that time when dad was still working in nestle when we drank perrier like water he brought back cartons of them and not forgetting lots of chocolates candies!! kitkat oh ya tins of milo and i always look forward to christmas period he brings back limited edition chocos i will just go wowwww opening my hands for more greedy me hehe

i'm lazy to upload more but will do soon!!

i'm craving for cupwaker chocolate bubbletea at heartland mall
geeee cant wait to have it next week when i go meet rennu so eggcited hehe

one more week of hols
ive had quite alot of fun
nightcycling was both fun and tiring to the maxx
will update soon

maybe just now yet

2009-06-18T23:40:00.000-07:00

surrealism is totally taking a toll on me
i so wanna go back to msia it was too short a week
cant wait to go back next fri for more feasting and this time shopping

the trip was great with lots of first times of this and that!!!
1. i think i had the most no. of buffets for like consecutive days
never got sick of it. strange but i got be more and more excited
food was really great from camp all the way till the end
2. I sat on a lorry!!! for the very first time.what a experience
i always wondered how it would be like? 45mins or so journey i guess
andd someone fell of from the lorry i was like stunned i think i lost
myself for a minute or so haha
3. water rafting was so awesome with the hi-5s, the bumps, the wooohooing
its really like what you see on tvs just that exp-ing it is the bomb!!
sadly i couldnt bring my cam cause my mum was scared i would lose it
it was a really nice view in the mountain
4. water apsailing was scary at first just climbing up to the destination was like
rocky and all but wow its funnnn!!!and the water rushing down your feet
5. i leaned on the rocks and let the water gush down on my whole body!!
i finally did that yeahhh i wished i was there forever
6. OHHH and i climbed on a tree and jumped down into the sea
i finally climbed a tree like jane and tarzan HAHA

we might go back there in december when the tide is much heavier
now someone gave me a thought of getting a diving license
shall we?! wellwell in the end we didnt get to snorkell soon yeah
i wanna go into a cave hahahhah.

so the aftermath of all that eating was a puking bug!!! yeah so sad man
we ended our trip at malacca and zoomed back to spore
food was not on my mind(I"M NOT A PIG AARON SEEEE!!! haha)
dad was worst then me ha i think cause he ate more dumplings than me

camp and the trip was great
now back to reality
it hasnt struck me soon it will i guess

fast and furious

2009-06-06T03:05:00.000-07:00

hey rennu!!!my dear friend
not sure if you'll read this but this is for you!
no matter what you are feeling now god knows and he feels for you
cast all your worries unto him
don't think too much
its energy zapping hehe!!!
i miss you so much
catchup=ketchup soon!!!
i got so much to tell you too
and i'll always be there for you
xoxo!!!!

i can't wait to escape this mini island cause i need to getaway
i finally have a goal
so after this hols i'm really really going to start a fresh
goodbye C i'm really gonna move on
and not gonna make the same mistake as Y
so wooooohoooooo
i'm excited for whats to come

goodbye sem 1

the ifs

2009-05-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

if only we could say whatever we felt
if only we didnt have to hide any secrets
if only our friendship was stronger
if only the word stress didnt exist
if only the laughters we had lasted
if only we could read each other's minds
if only you felt the same way
if only i could stop asking
if only i would like everyone
if only i knew what you were thinking
if only yes all the ifs
without them life would be prefect hmmm is that what we want
then wont life be too easy
maybe cause i treasure it too much losing this f/s is just
theses ahhhhhh days comes thanks to the period
or has this been brewing all along just that theres nothing we want to do
or been too caught up with the whatnots
have i really been too caught up till i dont see the damage

i dont know what to do anymore
the shepard guides the lost sheep
O' Lord i need you

like what C said saying alil sorry wont kill
where are you C i miss you

sea life i can't wait

2009-05-19T19:43:00.000-07:00

i can't wait for june
the adrenaline adventure i always look forward to
staying in the sea for hrs and hrs never getting sick of it
getting tan yes!!! i'm getting paler and thats not good at all
fishes, corals water rafting!!! and something else i cant rmb
it all spells as loads of fun

so to get myself motivated!! just think about that trip
and it will start me to do work

i can't wait for fri and sat to zomg by
because its a fresh start yet again good or bad
i don't know

All i know is that from may1st to may17
were actually days i felt so happy like really
i mean i was just so happy
undescribable memories that i can't erase
how 1 sentence can change everything
and tear down everything like everything
you know i actually treasured every single bit of it

Lord set me free from all this
i know god always has plans for me
THANK YOU

crs here i come

and i tryying my best to talk softer hehe!!
talking loudly is in my fam's blood. reallyyyy

a little prayer of comfort

2009-05-18T03:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord

I want so much to be craddled in your arms
to be in your warmth embrace because you love me
more than anything in the world
i know you are always watching and protecting me
THANK YOU LORD

p/s sorry for being so whiny i will stop it.

those were the days

2009-05-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

i'm glad today is over
i wonder when would i be good in those stuff

insecurities creep in i wonder why
how can i feel that way

bring me back to those sec sch days
after sch=hang out at j8 lunch and jokes of a million
sch=lotsa crazy fun wacky memories
and just awhole lot that i rmb

i have to keep saying i am cut out for this
although my mind loves to play those mind games

wish you a happy day

2009-05-08T17:58:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday EE Tiean

you are legally 18!!! so old ah juz kidding
love you always more awesome times to come
with more huhs? coming from you
hope you enjoyed yesterday next year will be better for sure

i wanna post pics but......

cravings cravings and more cravings

2009-05-08T08:14:00.000-07:00

im craving for shi lin chicken andddd! tom yum soup
ahhh loong make for me tom yum soup now
with lotsa prawns squids butter mushrooms
and shiok soup base i juz tempting myself sia
anddd i will eat you ,shilin tmr
HAHAHAHAH
bye i will be a better someboday tmr

andd love is a riddle

2009-05-06T16:24:00.000-07:00

im just too attached that its so hard
where has all my independence gone too
pretty excited for class gathering actually!!!
at least its at bishan no westy area hahah
familar faces familar company

my wardrobe is giving me daily headaches
and im having some color malfunctioning too
so letz see
bye sch here i come

does it beat along with you

2009-05-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

i enjoy your company whats your take?
maybe i just found the right one
yeah bring it on

dinner with loads of chilli=shiok
but im so sleepy so how now brown cow
sleeping with a full tummy=unhealthy haha

Lord i'm so thankful you took away all that feeling
and placed into it indescribable bliss

everything happens for a reason
chocolate ah chocolate you give a big headache!

soul searching ,right

2009-05-04T12:56:00.000-07:00

surrealism is taking its toll on me
ha rminds me of dada hti.i missed all that philsophy stuff
faris come back to teach us pretty please ha.

i don't know why but i was so glad yesterday
the minute i stepped into the hse
my dad say yay you are back can have dinner now
oh family dinners=joy

i'm so addicted to diaso shop it doesnt seem to shop
but really mini japan=cheap so buy alot more hehe

i think i need to be abit more spontaneous cause i can forsee
if i don't start treasuring it now it will gone
and that bond will stray too far to patch back
but i just feel so drained well well i want to go on a holiday
i can wait for june but for now just got to be nice
goodbye all the pissy cells in me

bye a proper post when life gets more interesting
isnt it already just that ha.

when no more words are left to express it all

2009-05-03T06:56:00.000-07:00

be yourself or
even better

a gift from heaven you are
what should i do

be still and you'll know

2009-04-30T20:57:00.000-07:00

the beauty of the night sky
flashes through memories as bright as those lights

sch's been cool i'm hanging on
i love to be back
the oatmeal cookie is shiok
peach green tea but wheres the green tea ah
young tau foo with chilli
my eating hrs has been changed too hahah
too weird

you study at the bus stop ah
best my dad and brother are ultimate jokers

FALL DOWN LAUGHING

2009-04-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

hahah i had the no blogging feeling
butt i got to type this out cause today is too hilarious
first day of sch always has those memories.
will always rmb year 1 first day and same for year 2 man!!!
you know best thing was a few days ago i was thinking wow its been quite sometime since i fall down and i was so happy since i'm clumpsy like... hahah aunties you'll know staircases! i don't know whats with me
todayyy mega fall bestttt.too excited to go toliet i think hmmm
and i just rmb that time i tripped on cheryl's laptop wire too
best that trip i was literally running to keep my balance
this fall is hahahaha i can just laugh so embarrased man
and miss leong is so cute cottagyy woman and ee say she looks like those who will cook stew
best don't know why i just felt like laughing so hard during miss leongs lesson
i'm so stunned i can't believe it
ok i better stop
no more falling woooohoooooo drop dead

plane rides and luggage hogging

2009-04-04T06:19:00.000-07:00

BKK I NEED TO GO THERE NOW
my great escape yes no idon't know
i'm not really sure if its my time management or what
but i don't have enough time!24hrs is not enough
rushing all day long i guess it will stop
since i'm no longer working yeah farewells are always hard
thanks for the chocolates. this chapter is closed
hmmm guess whats new awaitng.
ANYWAY
i've got a long to do list which by hook or crook i got to finish
otherwise i would be an extremely grumpy girl HAHAHAH
my blog is getting borrowing since i can't upload pics
cause of a extremely hilarious reason
but anyway company's been good this week
for now i need to breathe man its exhausting
and my room fan is noisy i can't sleep
if i switch it off i can't sleep too cause i will be pespiring
troublesome la

ANYWAY TO MY DEAR FRIEND SYL
i love youuuu mann
don't worry god will answer all your prayers
though he seems so faraway
and its tough i know
can't wait to see you back to normal with that wide smile and craziness
i'm always a phone call away
can't wait to see you
shop til we drop once i get my pay

hey aunties i can treat you guys FOODDDD i'm loving it.cheez
i'm out but to you i still do miss you
my childhood L

charm me no more

2009-03-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

you are charming
its so hardhardhardhardhard
the truth can be so cruel
yet we got to move on and smile when inside we are crying
lifeohlife it aint easy but i'm gonna try

CHOCOLATE ICECREAM YUMMM

2009-03-27T18:10:00.000-07:00

i'm craving for carefour's chocolate icecream its the bomb i tell you
even better that hagen das really no bluffing.it makes me melt like
cheese on a melt KEKEKKE i love to use tt phrase
anywayyyyy
i'm working for 1 more weekkkk.can't believe it
its ending so fast 5 weeks gone cool cause tt equates to 5 weeks of hols gone too
GEEEEE.but i'm glad cause i learnt so much and so much i wanna say
i will miss them,you know its that kinda joy,meaning new pple and all
getting to know, however i've learnt tt sometimes it can turn out bad too
that a side i feel i got to know myself more
in a really weird quirkshy way its hard to come in terms with it
my bro's out for camp today and my parents got some church thing soooo
i got the whole hse to myself i miss them it ain't any fun with no one to talk to

hey mates hope you guys are enjoying your hol
you know somehow i just like the first day of sch though the unimaginable might happen
its that surge of excitement .but i'm enjoying the hols totally
its seems as if i'm making more and more mistakes
never knew it could be this complicated
but anyway we learn from mistakes
juz so you know i'm sorry i was not playing with you
its nothing of that sort
great week matess i'm missing pple

skipping away with memories

2009-03-21T03:52:00.000-07:00

next week would most probably be my last week of work
hmmm can't believe it almost a month of work!
i'll definitely miss all of them.they were really nice
it made me smile like tt kinda excitement
didn't have the dragging feeling although it can sometimes be tiring
but i'm thankful to have got to know the pple mann
they are nicenicenice!!
data entry, shredding paper and getting so facinated by it
i had to shred my own baptisim slip.sad case mannn
sharpening pencils hehehe.tearing envelopes, photocopying
and i realise for the first type i could read instructionsss and not panick at the disco
hehehe.miracle man, and cutting lots of boxes and tying strings
gonna miss doing all those stuff.its finding joy in the mundane
that makes this a totally unforgetable working exp!

this week has been hmmm i don't know surprising.
ohhh this bus 13 driver made me smile like i'm so touched by his actions
he will wait for pple who are running for the bus and the longer he waits
the more pple run for the bus and he will patiently wait and will signal to them not to worry
he won't leave without them.and the pple will spring out a wide smile and him
you know smiling in the morning makes your day man
its the lil stuff like this that pple do tt just make you so happy
i hope i get to sit his bus everyday so i can smile everyday!!!
this week has been very tiring i'm lacking in sleep for idk what reason 6hrs of sleep a day
is not enough for me hehehe i adore sleeping.totally.

i've learnt this week that whatever is meant to be urs
will be yours.only time will tell
if you are patient you will reap.
so bethleen patiences reaps.hehehe
i need that reminder.losing it is geeee idk
i feel like i'm losing myself
nahnahanhanah.
next will be better i hope lord!
thanks for friends man>>)

hop scotch and recess fun!

2009-03-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

i was in town today and bumped into my primary sch friend
hmmm i sound old man nahnahnah i still studying heheheh
comforting myself man
yeah anyway then it reminded me of my primary sch days
i flooded my friends with kisses!!!!
hahhaha i'm strange yesss maybe that was the way i expressed myself
to the people i like not in that loveydovey way but in that treasuring mode
and all my friends got used to me
can't remember when i stopped kissing them though
but i can remember kissing many of them
none of which i keep in contact with sad man! almost all of them didn't
stufy at pl sec.smarties i tell you.i miss them random man
but i can still rmb all the fun we had geniune naive fun
quarrelling with my partner priscilla!! who i loved to annoy but we will still hold hands
grudgingly and catherine my bestbestbest friend
i rmb how she was afriad to use the phone cause she thought it was a monster
i guess there will be a time i will bump into them cause s'pores small
and i bumped into 1 today. friends do have seasons toooo
the laughts the quarrels pure joy fun its real not faked out
anyway then alighting from the car to go home
the ice cream man was here
and i said the ice cream man is here
that child like squeal that happy beam that i had when i was a child
still exist age does not matter i guess cause you will always have
child like thoughts in you
then i remembered how when the ice-cream man came in his bike
to my tuition teachers hse, we would leave our hmworks aside
and run straight to him like instanteously
and one of us will go back into her hse
and my tuition teacher will give us money to buyyy!
so sweet of herrrr, sadly how our friendship has ended
hmmm its the unexpectedness of such stuff that make life kinda sad
but that aside!!!! all will be fine
so anyway for now i'm trying my best to enjoy all the mundane that i am doing
i'm trying really mann i'm sick of kuehs alr, but milo is still the bombb
shall hunt for other snackss.eat in moderation ahhh bethleen kwek!!hahaha

i'm actually kinda afriad abt nxt week yaaaa that day
i know i got to be prepared but then again i don't want to dissapoint them
they have really been extremely supportive.
keeping motivated is what i need because all these will only make you me stronger
i can do itttttttttttt!!!
i'm gald i 've moved on too
nolonger that baggage that used to pull me down
i'll move along with the wind
friends?yesyesyes and i want to remain like that
its awesome.shave bald hahahha i feel like laughing
opps i'm being mean hehehe.nah you are the best man
what a long post and i enjoy it,maybe i should juz blog once a week
great week ahead yo

enjoy the non-speedboat life

2009-03-07T07:10:00.000-08:00

i'm pretty much enjoying my days at work
with gwen and our kuehs with milo and creamer
yanking juz about anything under the sun its great
juz another turning point in my life
wondering what would i be when i have to enter working life
permertantly wow that actually scares me.
when we are free for awhile we get so restless and self entertainment is our resort
so a deskbound job for me,maybe not but then again
whatever happens who knows.only god!!!!
talking about how much we miss pl
brings make all the sweet memories.stef rennu shams!!!we gotgotgot to meet up soon
hmmm i wonder hows jeanne doing in laselle,muzz ask her man
i was juz thinking and i wanna be a tour guide
cuzzz i get to travel ard the world which is my dream mann
i needneedneed to bagpack its a mustdo in my list
i wannna be a fashion merchandiser
thats my dreamm,drool over juz thinking about it
hmmm i wanna learn to saw my clothes,people buying it
beam with joy and sream success
i wanna be a writer,my thoughts are everywhere 1 min thinking abt this
and the next minute another thing
its crazyyy but i amaze myself i think!
i wanna own my very own boutique
andd sip tea with coffee and yank away with customers HAHAH
i realiseing moremore about myself now
since life is not much of a rush
its the slowness that i adore
i get to be more mesmerize in my thoughts
how would year2 be like, the rushness and all that xxxx idk
can't even imagine man
buttt year1 has been great8888 i muz say
thats so much contained in my pea brain alll that i hold dearly
and would love to tell my kids all the funnyfunny exps
ohman i can't wait to have kids!realllyyreally
i was telling gwen how i wished when i was a kid i had a twin sis!
so we came up with imaginery twin sis for ourselves!!!
i want to have twinnnnss then i can doll them up with pretty sweet dresses!
i juz can't wait
wowwww gee what a long post
my thoughts could not stop flowing
oh howww i love the slowness with not much worries
juz enjoying everything bit by bit.
next will be good,i 'm really waiting for that
when will i finally move on.
god please help me..
great weekooo bobosss.
xoxo.B

drool with fun and scream freedom

2009-02-28T02:36:00.000-08:00

woooohoooooo
i'm backkk after the awesomely busy weekkk totally draining
andd for that i slept for 14 solid hours shiok or what
HAHAAHAH.i'm amazed too.but in my family i'm always known for being sleeping beauty
ma and my daddyoyo sleeps the mostt.
so for all the odd sleeping hrs i've been having doing the project
its been awesomeawesomeXXXXX1000000

anddd i've returned to work lifee
welcome me with open arms babyyy
milo powder with creamer and hot water is the bomb i tell
wakes my sleepy cells up
go make one dayyy HAHAHAH

inner turmoil is killerr i tell you
once i've sorted it all out
happygolucky hahahha

great week guyssss
meetupss with o' friendoosss awesomelyyyy can't wait no more
xoxo.outta here weekendss i luv you!

dream big

2009-02-20T20:30:00.000-08:00

the freedom of speech has set me free.
fly with the birds and smile

whats going on

2009-02-18T00:08:00.000-08:00

change is our constant reminder to move on

a hug with god

2009-02-17T17:26:00.000-08:00

God loves you and i need his love so much
nothing else is important anymore

i'm on a rollar coaster ride for now
cause i pushed it far
and realised i've never been on sucha a journey
'cause i didn't yearn for one before
so from now on i won't yearn for it anymore
cause theres more pain than gain
more regret and to all those that have to put up with me
i'm so sorry
you've put in quite joyful memories though
beating like crazy juz for you
i guess i'm just not ready so goodbye
we'll meet someday down the road
maybe then i'll be ready

report's calling me.its the final one before its chill time
and i got a 8bux per hr dealll i'm so excited plzzz i so need it.

not bleakishh

2009-02-01T00:39:00.000-08:00

hmmm my weekend was pretty much a blast i must say
other then the fact that i had endless work to complete
spent time with my mum over at ps on sat
and caught up quite abit with syl for the past 2 days
it feels great reminising the past, studying during o's together and now still can do work together
cause we are design students:)))))
motivated each other here and there till we got addicted to the game on facebook
its really great to have ya as a neighbour
though we don't catch up quite often
but we know we'll always have each other to run too whenever
sweet nibblets love ya man
don't stay under the radar hahahah

my mum told me something
you've got to draw a boundary
orelse it will turn bad in time to come
i agree cause yeah what i've not imagined has alr happened
and to think it turned sour its really not what i wanted
but then how do i tell you
when you don't know and you may never
until i say
mend up whats broken
time will heal

oh and something hilarious!
micheal told syl i was carrying a doremon bag!!
no wonder he said you carry that bag?
hahahaha laughed lots about it
reminds me of EE's love for doremon
great week ahead
who wants to be my stress reliever hahaha.

what inspires you?

2009-01-28T04:55:00.000-08:00

''we came from to subways of newyork city"

and here we are at the stage of LA

ohboyyy they inspire me so much

the volinist duo are electrifying
alrighto back to my journals

i'm in love with chap chye!

awesomeawesomeawesome food during cny period

food makes me go gaga!

am so happy with the catching up and my sec1 cuz is seriously nice

she bought jeanette aw mags for me>)))))))))

i can't wait for next cny hehehehe

i love my family

and my granny's cooking is really beyond words great to the max

prawns,curry,chapchye,raddishcake,hot rice gushed down with green tea

alright BBBBB!stop it with food

plz thurs and friday hope it'l turn out juz fine:)

finger licking good

2009-01-25T06:28:00.000-08:00

i've just had an overdose of chocolate fondue

it's one of those times when you were young

and kept pestering your mum for candy more more more please!

seeing my cuzs getting so jumpy and excited

oh the good old times remains and it will always do

food was awesome.i don't know why but i always love family gatherings

so HAPPY CNY

i'm out its the season of catching up

will you fade away please don't

2009-01-23T18:57:00.000-08:00

S i got tons of pics to sent ya!hahahaha soon

i'm excited for the gems skit! and our results really shocked us

until almost forgot to say here!best denki

ehhh zhi hong your name is benjamin!!! bomb joke of the year

L made S so blur shes in alice in wonderland

i got my slips really glad luvvv it to the core of my feet!

this cny may not be as usual but it will definitely make me treasure everyone ard me

my family friends and all

i love chou chou so much its all thats in my mind i'll just fill her up before it all fades

i wanna go to a place that i can take pictures

pictures that inspire me

now i think i really know what i want

i'm going to make my vision come to pass

i love to look at it over and over again that sense of accomplishment

what if the joke gets too far

will it just spoil all that we had

maybe

dreamland ftw!

2009-01-22T05:49:00.000-08:00

S's face is really priceless i like her face so muchhhh man our
eyes were gone thanks to ppt AHAHHA!

she smiled at me i'mmm so happyyyyy
maybe my remorseful for my grandad had really hit me
i did not want that to repeat again and really thank god
i'm so happy that i had the time to visit her
i'm so gald that mon and tuesday didn't have to repeat itself again
wed and today saw me smiling just good thoughts ya
so much have happened i just can't believe it

will blog more soon i'm out got sketches to do

break free comon and dance

2009-01-18T12:01:00.000-08:00

itss erm 4 in the morning and my neighbour the next block is playing loud music

hahahha whats with that at least it keeps me awake

got to rush 3 more direction mood boards and i'm done

all the hecticness is deprieving me of my much needed shopping

weekends are such a joy to me family time and all

it;s like as if it's been all taken away so i long again for the me and mum period

but for now its the season of projects

can't wait for cny seriouslyyy!my lil cuzzs coming over playing with sparkles

reminiscing the good ol' days and seeing them grow upp hahahah

i really hope my weekends will be free i've got somethings to grab

in afew hrs i will be staring at my wardrobe thinking what to wear again

most prolly grab my mum's i was thinking of her vintage floral dress
alrightaa back to work

hey S i'll be there for you and not let you fall like me LUVVVVV

i'll not let it repent again i've just learn awole new lesson

i'mm outta here bye folks

i've got it all cleared up!

2009-01-17T00:02:00.000-08:00

HEYHEYHEYYY i'm backkk

ohhh anddd to all out there google sp's experience and product design course!!!!

schoolsss been filled with dramaaa and all the stress
seriously awesomelyy stressful week
we can pull it through mann time is passing ohsofast soon it's goodbye to year 1
did the the button project all thanks to thierry really know lots more
about materials can't waittt to know more mannn i will suck in as much informationn
woooohooooooooo
anddd it turned out alright all the rushing and all and best thingg my kichen toilet has blue colour sprayy on the tilesss and cny is comingg
i'mmm really a dumbdumb with the green line after knowing the girls then did i step into
jurong point! really big mann with lots of pple
andd S sista was really funny carrying that book hahahah she reminds me of me sometimes
HAHAHAHHA
so yess this week has been crazyy and i've found out so muchh
and from today onn it's really goodbyee yess i've really sat down
thinkthinkthink and think all of it was so sweet
but it has hit me a smokerr is really not what i wantt
sorry i'm not trying to judge you yaaaa
i seriously need to clear it all up and move on it's really affecting me alot esp this week
hmmm guess i've had ittt GOOD DAYS AHEADDDD wooohooooo
so the next few weeks are goona be ohsotoughh but we can do it
hahahahha ciaooo

i yearn for simplicity

2009-01-09T19:57:00.000-08:00

the mundane makes makes me smile and laugh
but now all i remember is me being irritated and all
whats with me i wonder

bye 2008

2008-12-31T02:00:00.000-08:00

gonna be a wordyyy post

coming to the end of 2008,it's been pretty much great
first few months were the periods of nostalgia :
Miss the girls, yam pau,stoping at intervals just to yankkk,lunching after school,last minute cramping,joking around,lab lessons,and lotslots more
it was just extremely funnnn! it gives you that unexplainable happiness.POIESIS hahha
working was draining me i guess,cause my laughings days were taken away totallyy, but the
exprience is priceless and my superv was awesomee

my results was seriouslyyy a miracle from GOD of coursee he lights up our dark path!!!
and after much thought yeah i took that path i never imaginedd i would guess cause i didn't dare but god has a plan for everything

first week or so of poly was my bluresttt of all yrs somewhere theree.hahahah aunties but have heard most of the stories.don't know the place getting lost and heading to the wrong class ultimately leading me to knowing no one when lessons started proper,hahah
but schoolss been greattt so far its stressfull and all but laughter definitely brings all of us a long way ! and lots of first time learning this and thatt it exposes me alot and i've definitely seen lotsa things with a new light
so i await 2009 with anticipation

and yeah knowing you has made me learn lotsa of things
and it has really tested me so many times i'm so lost now
but it will turn out good yeah it will

i'll put in lotsa effort for flashh
i will try my best to understand everythingg and put in my all
so sorry mrs wong for having to mark my uncomplete work and all

thats all folksss hahahaa my crazyy thoughtss!
goodbye to the year of lotsa laughter and hello to more

i'm in the moodddd!

2008-12-25T06:13:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMASSSS
pictures up soon byeeeee

icecream joy

2008-12-19T13:29:00.000-08:00

quick update before i head out to meet my aunty

meet Twin yesterdayyy she's backbackback!

headed to island cremery i love that place man the ice cream is fab

caught up alot yeah laughed and jokedd oh wow i miss pl so much again

school memories i'll hold onto for a life time sure thing

i've got picuressss!

laughed so hard after we took this pic!!!when you look me in my eyes hahahah.

i like this shoottt

we were suppose to make our veins pop out hahaha

chaoooo can't wait to see the elderly and play rummyyyy

ohhhh i miss them ohsomuchh

xoxo

snuggly jumpsuits

2008-12-12T16:50:00.000-08:00

hmmm how shall i start

it's been an awesomeeee week
i went to the gym with my brother on wedd
i felt so much lighter getting off a lil fats i had accumulated from the late night
snacking days to keep myself awake.WOOWWWW
shopping with S made me pretty happy at least i got some stuff
that i really wanted and i got that hat which my brother took to camp today
i just hope it comes back in 1 piece
bought lotsa paper products thanks to the closing down sale ho'boyyy seriously heavyy
pictures that day was really funnyyy i guess lots of people thought we were tourist
and the awesome cheap soyabeannnn i'm gonna get it again
M'sia on friday was awesomeeee i was waiting for this dayyy man
although not really hardcore shopping i bought a tee and sleeveless
which i'm quite happy with
manhatten fish market was nice as usuall
and we caught bolt really must catch mannnn!go watch it
the animation is 10 thumbs up hahahah,after learning flash
i seriously have upmost respect for animation masters hahaha
realllly must watch the pigeons are hillarious keep dropping fur!
to sum up the day it was funnn shopping eating and more eating
but the jam coming back was killlerr
so next week start of the piling work
i can do ittt azaaza fighting!
ohhhh i finally caught 2day 1 night
funnnyyyyyy to the maxxx!
hmmm my brother is off to camp againn
but days pass extremely fast without him around
i shall start with christmas shoppingg creative juices sprouting HAHAH
picturess soonn.vvv

worminggg

2008-12-07T04:46:00.000-08:00

i shall post a convo btn my father and brother
they were talking about pulling in songs to the com
after talking a whole chuck my father said you tell me for what then?
best denkiiiiiiiii
my mum and i were laughing like crazy
mummy said senseless talk mannnn!
HAHAHAHAH

anywayy todayi was hit with dissapointment
the feeling is so arghhh but what to do
move on man bethleen
there's much to life then just this i guess

i'm pretty excited for the week head
shopping eating playing so harddd
and in a blink of an eye the hols are up
wowww geeee.HAHAAHAH

it's over

2008-12-06T06:23:00.001-08:00

hmmm this week has been an rollar coaster ride, good and bad i guess:)

Tuesday 2nd dec

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY MEIMEIII
my ohsosute mei luvvvv

mrs wong you are so sweetttt!
she is the sweetest flash teacher ever i guess!her story abt her injury made me so saddd
mannn i appreaciated her so much more, theres still another term with herr:D
and we gave her a slice of cake and she beamedd so innocentlyy her smile will
always be remembered yeah
then headed off to make my day alil better
made amendments with my mood box, but the more i did the more the feeling faded
hmmm i was happy but it left me more confused
whoaaa geee what have i gotten myself into

Wed

headed to schh to do flash cause mrs wong was staying longerr
sweet nibbletsss man she can't really rmb what else happened
ohhh cut my cake when i homedd!
i love my familyyy
thanks for always being there and tolerating my mood swings
esp for the past few days i've been sucha ass!getting pissing with my bro for nothing

Thursday

I"MMM OFFICAILLY 18

don't be jealouss auntiesss,hahahah
thanks for everything you guys have doneee
it's so sweett
thank you everyone out for your wishesss
i'm so toucheddd
it was suchaaa busyy day
meet S at the library to finish up illustrator
and she went to get bubble tea
and meet bubbletea guy hahahah just kiddinggg
hope to see him again longggggg legs
stayed in sch to do the chair
then i panicked in the discooo with my mood boxx
thanks nazzzz and S i dk what would have happen with ya help
then left with S andddd we saw the security closing the gate and we rannnn to
ask him tto stop , just in time mann
headed off the aunt's hse to stay over i was home sick mannn
but aunt is so niceeee she bought cakes for me THANK YOUU

Fridayyy

chair critic: hmmm we did our best
anyway it was great working with ya guysss hahaha the taking turnss thing, the relax mood it was funn

sorry guyss i know you all don't really like this pic but it's the only 1 i can find
yup this sums up my weekkk and it's exhuasting
lets smile and go crazyyy for the 3 weeks of holss
i'm pretty exciteddd!i'm gonna do all the things i felt so deprived off
off i gooooo
to do the things that make me wildddd
HAHAHAHAH

it's in you i guess

2008-11-28T20:20:00.000-08:00

wowww this week has been extremelyyy hectic
i enjoyeddd last weekend really very much with my famillyyy
shopping with them and just soaking into the pre-christmas mood
s'pore flyer on sundayyy was quite an experience, it's moves really slowly
but you'll be surprised you're reached the top
i felt so tall for once.HAHAHHA
i came put alil giddyy ho boyyyy.
school's fun and all but the assignments just seems endless
anddd i'm really not good at illustrator and flashhh, believe in yourself bethleen you can do it
hey matesss we will all pull through thisss! 1 more week to gooo anddddd
we can partyyyy like a rock star!
ohhh right and yesterdayyyy i was the only 1 in my group there the boysss la
woke up late then i was stoning there look at mj's grp structures
then edwin ask me where's my grp then i say coming,and they said what's newww
besssst denkiii, nazzzz came soon after good thing before presentation orelse
HAHAHAH 1 man show.came up with a few ideas for the chair i'mmm excited
busyyy last week but, stayyy strong yeahh
anddd after sch yesterday meet mummy in town with a few cardboards,and my mum helped
me to carry it so nice of herrr,had shi lin chicken my all time favvv!i was so exhausted, but shopping sure relaxes youu it's therapyyy to mind body and soull
my brother will be back from camp tmrrr i miss him
the house is so quiet without you berwynnn,heard the camp was torturous luvvv yaa
alright kiddos shall end here yanked too much.vvv
i'm so happy you called
but i would like to end it
sometimess i wonder what am i doing
goodbye!

HEY YOU

2008-11-19T14:54:00.000-08:00

Mondayy
ultimate crazy dayy bumping into them 1 by 1 with the auntiess
HAHAAH, i saw youuuu
can believe i acted that way the whole time, i'm losing my sanity
i kinda wasted the whole day, cause i didn't bring my clay
workshopped and rickyy was teasing me seriously he ahhhh
hahahaha, and his ringtone is the ultimatee, kwettttt!
you made my dayy! i don't have the gutss oh man
and whats with the longer hair noww,hahah

i'm left with the last model and the detailss are driving my crazyyy wheeeee
i better work faster mannnn, logo design and essay is still waiting for me
so excited for the story boardinggg , i finally understand what to do
let our imagination go wild togetherr
and thierry's lesson yesterday was prettyyyy coolll
have a nice day fellas
ciao dickenson

sunny sideup

2008-11-15T11:04:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEW TENG

hoped you enjoyed yesterdayyy

shall post some pictures taken, during the past few days

alrightyyy ciao earthlingsss

Relieve

2008-11-11T22:41:00.000-08:00

lab test is over volaaaa i'mmm happy,
i'm so thankfulll to god for everything.vv
anyway bumped into fair li at the foodcourt
we yankedd for a really long time i must sayyyyit was great
she kept calling me a bird and a designer
who smokes.HAHAHAHA.i dressed well you knowwwww
i miss pl so muchh all the memories flood like the red sea
yam pau with the bunch and milo freezeee
chem pracs are the most memoriable for me mannn i'm so blur
thank god i didn't bomb down the chem lab
oh rennu, shams and stef i miss you guyss so much
anddd teachers saying bethleen and gang stop talking.HHAAHAHHA no S i don't have a big mouth

HILLSSSS

2008-11-08T16:02:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOO!gems was quite fun i must say, the group part and the you are blah blah blah, was extremely funnyy, i was laughing non-stop, then when he got back to his ppt slides we were all knocking off again. I've really fallen in love with pearss HAHAH, now i've got to make models of them anddd S and E took such a long time trying to explain to me what we were supposed to do 'cause i just couldn't understandd they almost died seriouslyyy. have to do a bit of adjustments more to the pear. most prolly going to get clay with daddyoyo. at night had exit meeting and the speaker really stirred alot in me, i'mma gonna be alot more observant to my surroundings. And we were joking around alot with emily it was funn, and we laughed alot till our tummy's ached. Flash test is next week i'm really freaking out i'm gonna practise till i'm a pro hmmm butt when will that happen guess when the moon drops to my room. alrightyyy off to do pear drawings and the hills is a grat companion,happy weekends luvvvvvvvvv

pear here i comee

2008-11-05T04:09:00.000-08:00

school has been fine i guess other than more workhead off with S to get my fake pear and it was quite funnyi told the girl can i buy the fake pear, and she made me think it was not for sellanyway it looked really real. my bodyyy was aching like i don't know what.fatigue was all over, wasn't in any mood to do anything pulled my body here and therehad a long bus ride homee 'cause of the jam .Headed straight to bedd shiok man, now off to draw my peari'mma pretty excited. sorry s for not bringing duckyyy luvvv you

opened dudess

2008-11-01T22:09:00.000-07:00

HELLO EARTHLINGSafter gazzillion years i've decided to blog again!alrightyyy went for a haircut today banged up my fringe guess it's alright, buttt my mum couldn't recognise me when i headed off to the market to look for her anddd she told the fish monger i had a haircut.HA!towned with my family anddd i'm still exhausted from the busy weekseating on the com for countless hours doing reports and stuff reallydeprived me my sleep.pleasseee good days aheadanyway dinner was fabbb!steamboat with awesome ingredients!hahahah, me and food and to end it off, a really prettyyyy cupcakeoff to do the tea project! i love tea.HA!ciao earthlingsss